Evelyn Tan

heat of the moment? i dunnoe. wrong choice to even choose him i dunnoe...
woke up early to meet him .. but like the usual. even for such impt events he was late as usual...

dun tat jus show how much his promise could go...

came home. miss him and decide to try my luck and ring him up. but i guess he was busy. happy enough cos he picked up my phone. if not it had been missed calls again..... but it was as good not pickin up.he hold me on the phone for sometime and went on msning for a while... all of a sudden i felt tat i was sam.. i rmb he once told me he had put sam on the phone on a hold and played gun bound for some time. he forgoted all abt the phone call.. when he picked up it was far too late..

i was sad..but i thot he must be busy wif the rankings online.so when he was back on the phone i decide i shan't bother him any further and hang up wif him.

but sad to saae.even when i come onlinee. hhhe didnt talk to me. it was when i went off den he msg me. but i guess if my nick name was not so funny he wouldnt evenbother i guess.

well manage to talk to him for a while online..things like u deserve better form me.better treatments. better kinda love..i dunnoe but it sends this msg tat he thinks its onli when i treat him well den i deserve the love of his? doesnt love comes naturally? doesn't it? if its forced out of him den its fake..

he asked me too. do i love him lesser? i felt my heart tear *tears* its like dun even say or talk abt pervious months. jus talk a look at this week. tue woke up. and i was at his house door steps to wake him up and get him goin for heats . wed i was sick yet i woke up and reach his pls at 630am. and den waited for him to come back at bk patiently. fri i went down again to support him. all this fake one?put up for show? sigh i guess its still me putting in all the effort. and him ... receving...

again how we ended our convo.. lets forget abt the sad things.. and start tml fresh...said by him always... there was never a definate ans. he keep sayin he is tryin to make up. he will show me tat he turly loves me.... but yeah i m waiting. and waiting still...