Evelyn Tan

its one of the rare days when i m not out.
i m acutally home alone on a sundae
i couldnt seem to sleep last nite
insomia
ans:
dance stress - truth is i m F worried abt production which is in 1mths time
or perhaps there are also other things on my mind

I can't sleep at night
When you are on my mind
Bobby Womack's on the radio
Saying to me
"If you think you're lonely now"
Wait a minute
This is too deep (too deep)
I gotta change the station
So I turn the dial
Trying to catch a break
And then I hear Babyface
I only think of you
And it's breaking my heart
I'm trying to keep it together
But I'm falling apart

its a day when everythin slows down
when one looks behind
and see what have gone past
yes i was reading my past entires
i was askin myself much questions as well
all of a sudden nessa's sentence weeks ago struck me
rather question
ans:
truth is i m jus worried abt the histories
those days are jus so dark
i dun wish to be covered by it again
its scary trust me
even for now i could see it coming
tats the reason why i choose to to step in agan

so much random thots come pass
two years ago i m jus a lousy ass in nra
now i m workin my ass for production
i was sharing with nessa
sometimes u look at xiang and wil dance
we tend to recall how things was like 2 years ago
how our first performance was like
and how far we come by till now
good thing is tat we never give up on our passion
in case u are wondering why wil and xiang
we use to be so close and crapping our hours away
pizza hut days was the best
we must do tat one dae soon yeah!

there is jus too many things goin on
i read through my past entries
wad i m lacking of
is a strong shoulder to lean on
someone who can really understand wad i m goin through
esp in terms of dance

about work
it sucks as before
imagine a boss tat gives u a target of 30 surveys a day
when his old agents are doing like 8 surveys
reason he gave me, they are offering products as well. i m jus doin survery five mins done alr. wth who will stop for u to do in the first place. if its so easy u come and do la. irritating
den he preaches tat agents should have one aim
so u eat also thing abt sales for example
sleep also sales
shit also think of sales
etc
ok so well u preach like this
wad are u doing now
u are sitting in the office not doin anythin
when u noe recuirment is ur one aim
u are passing it to ur wife to do it. when the pass agents and current agents tat joined is all her effort. u say she never put in enough effort. come on la. wad are u doin den. her one target should be sales not recuirtment.
it will affect her sales for sure if she diversify
and wad are u doing?
smoking ur life away
drinking coffee in the coffee shop
look at ur sales last mth. its a pathetic 500 bucks
and ur wife 9996!
can u see the difference
wad she acomplish in amth
is how many 100 times urs?
can u be a gentleman?
u not onli live on ur wife
u scold old lady - fuck
u are no man
somemore dare to say some manager are good at sales some good at recuirting
very little can be good at all
look at urself pls
sales like shit
no agents joined for the year
u are doom k
u are literally sitting down there waiting for a miricale to happen
its jus so kiddy
like my brother use to say " mummy i dun swan to study for my spelling, i will pray to god and do well"

another incident!
i asked my friends to do survey
he ask me why i m wasting my time on them
when i already have their contacts
cos the ultimate aim of this survey is to get no
he thinks i will give my friends contact to him
i m not here to give him my friends contacts k
bloody hell

p.s it was a close shave when i was travelling to work that day. the motorcyclist actually went pass me.less then 1 mm away. if i haven stop in time i would have been gone and say bye to this beautiful world. all of a sudden i feel the importance of insurance. it must be a sign. accident *amost happen* outside AIA. Means must buy insurance rite?but diffinately not from tat jack ass.

next note - haze sucks
made me miss sentosa outing todae
roar will go for it on sat!

oh well
one more week to bare
and i m off ur shit

roar !
emotions over flowing

(Ooh, ooh, sweet love, yeah)

I didn't mean it
When I said I didn't love you, so
I should have held on tight
I never shoulda let you go
I didn't know nothing
I was stupid, I was foolish
I was lying to myself
I could not fathom that I would ever
Be without your love
Never imagined I'd be
Sitting here beside myself
Cause I didn't know you
Cause I didn't know me
But I thought I knew everything
I never felt

The feeling that I'm feeling
Now that I don't hear your voice
Or have your touch and kiss your lips
Cause I don't have a choice
Oh, what I wouldn't give
To have you lying by my side
Right here, cause baby
(We belong together)

[chorus]
When you left I lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby, please
Cause we belong together

Who else am I gon' lean on
When times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me on the phone
Till the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place
There ain't nobody better
Oh, baby baby, we belong together

I can't sleep at night
When you are on my mind
Bobby Womack's on the radio
Saying to me
"If you think you're lonely now"
Wait a minute
This is too deep (too deep)
I gotta change the station
So I turn the dial
Trying to catch a break
And then I hear Babyface
I only think of you
And it's breaking my heart
I'm trying to keep it together
But I'm falling apart

I'm feeling all out of my element
I'm throwing things, crying
Trying to figure out
Where the hell I went wrong
The pain reflected in this song
It ain't even half of what
I'm feeling inside
I need you
Need you back in my life, baby

[chorus]
When you left I lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby, please
Cause we belong together

Who else am I gon' lean on
When times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me on the phone
Till the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place
There ain't nobody better
Oh, baby baby, we belong together, baby

[chorus]
When you left I lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby, please
Cause we belong together

Who am I gonna lean on
When times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me
Till the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place
There ain't nobody better
Oh baby, baby
We belong together

*note of the day
try reading ur past entires
and u realise how much u have come by
and u realise who u are not mentioning
den u realise who u are neglecting
and u find wad u are lacking
and of course
who is on ur mind at this veri moment

thanks gfs for being there for me =)

when a certain song is played
u run through my flow of thots

misses
eve