Evelyn Tan

been thinking alot recently

if onli chicken little was real
"when it comes to savin the world, it helps to be a little chicken"

suppose to meet up with gfs todae
but grr
it rained so heavily
so much so that we have to call our dinner off
roar!
rah! bite the sky -even if its falling

deep thots*
yest nessa asked me the possibility of gettin back
i dunno how excatly to ans her question
cos part of me wants to part of me am afraid of history repeatin itself
call me selfish
but i noe no matter how i try to tell myself i dun love him anymore
the fact is still the fact tat deep down inside i still do

Because Of You

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break, the way you did, you fell so hard
I've learned the hard way to never let it get that far

Because of you I never strayed to far from the sidewalk
Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you I find it hard to find it hard to trust, not only me,
but everyone around me, Because of you, I am afraid

I lose my way, and its not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry, because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake a smile, a laugh, every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break, when it wasn't even whole to start with

I watched you die, I heard you cry, every night in your sleep.
I was so young, you should have known better than to lean on me.
You never thought of anyone else you just saw your pain.
And now I cry in the middle of the night, doin the same damn thing

Because of you I never strayed to far from the sidewalk
Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you I don't know how to let anyone else in

Because of you I'm ashamed of my life, because its empty
Because of you, I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you

this song reflects abt me alot
abt the times when we talked till i broke down
cry my hearts and lungs out
the last time i did tat was sec four *when we had our education of life*
literally to the pt where i was havin a bad headache

i noe u are sad
and i noe u are tryin to force the smile across ur face
it hurts me even mre to see u tat way
but when things are lost
tats why u treat me like when we started
why does it have to be this way.

sigh
i wish there was jus one perfect solution to all this
hurt, cries, heartache.. and the list continues