Evelyn Tan

reflections

its been sometime since i last blogged.

times when i was low
times when i was sailing smooth
these times well spent
well remembered
deep down inside

there may be many friends
but there are onli a few true friends
i have mind
and u have urs
thank u all
for being there
apologies
for being hurtful

apologies mayb plain
it may meant nothing
there may not be anymore chances
for a uturn back
but most sincerely
request for

reflections
past relations
never smooth
some unreal
some so beautiful lies
till den i doubt for a true relation
till i found u

i realise
every hour
every min
counting the seconds
jus one word
i love u
form u melts my heart

i can hardly response
to ur words so true
i noe i need u
no one else but u
i love u
like the way u do
i noe
this time
its so real
sometimes too good to be true
but i m the lucky gal
of urs
and u are my lucky boy

todae
first mth
nothin more i can sae
but the simple three words
the sweetest way i can put em


i did much reflections.i neglected loads.i changed much.in my way and style of handing things.i realise how much childishness got into me.how inmature i handle things.how i response was utterly a dissapointment to me as well.i dunnoe wad got into me.i didn't tell u gals first hand.my apologies again.i need to find myself back.the old evelyn.i m searching.much soul searchin have been done.i need much cue.attitude.actions.altitude.all in all.i need a major change.its all not good.i dun like the evelyn now.forgive me?forgive me not.i think at this pt in time.it doesn't reali matter abt forgiving anymore.more like if i did accomplish to get myself back.a better me.without a chance given.i can prove it.sincerely.so here i m askin for one.i dunnoe how else to end.but i love u gals.deep down inside.*hugs*

and more importantly
i m so gald
i m wif u
i have u
i got u
i need u
i miss u
and
i love u
so so so much


wif loads of love.

bubbles of joy.

endless hugs.

and flowers to go for the gals in my life.

evelyn
[last goodbye~love can seem to end~our friendship has no end~love]