Evelyn Tan

"The hardest of all is learning to be a well of affection, and not a fountain; to show them we love them not when we feel like it, but when they do."

i opend my book.a fresh new page.rite on the top of it i wrote in the last chapt of the book.i dun stay in the wrold of my own.where there is endless hopes and never a final ending.no destination at all means nothin to me.i wrapped this puzzle wif a delicate silk.keep it rite deep inside the closet.its my own memory.my love.my heart.my soul all wrapped up together wif it.now.everythin is filled wif emptyness.afresh?i dunnoe.but its a step i wanna take.i ended this chapter wif love.the dae i open this chapter up again.is the dae i found u.

got back the ri paper.flunk it.why?mayb cus i was pay attention to wad i was doin.my heart was somewhere else.mayb i was reali bothered wif u.distracted by ur presence in my heart?.i got to get over this.jong called.i knew it was him.when the phone rang.but i dunnoe wad to sae.i dunnoe how to face him anymore.its so hard.i hurt him so much.i dunnoe wad i can do to make things up fer him.gee~why does things have to be like tat.he called a total of three times.i m sorri.if there was one thing i could choose to do now.i wish i had never exisited.perhaps tat's the main reason why i didnt wan to come out of my mum's womb.i stayed in so much longer.one mth more?i would have died.things wouldn't be tat bad?mum need not worry fer me.i wouldn't have cus so much pain in so many pple's live.and yet.i wouldn't have such a bad crush.was given the marathon cards.donation card in another word.mr ng asked me to sell his fer him.as if my contacts is tat wide?ponder.he hinted fer my presence on the dae itself.can't pon it i guess.its sher's bdae.i shall acc her.a topsy turvy life indeed.i walked away upon turning back.i heave a deep sigh.love u all.all those who have appeared in my life.and esp u.thank god i found u.but sigh so wad if i found u?

.eve.with the deepest love.too lost in u.