i m back

i walked by the beach.engraved ur name in every corner of the island.every min when the moment is stagnent.u cross my mind.its hard to hold on when there is nothin to hold on at all.but all i have is an imaginary pole.i m fallin i noe.but there's nth i could do.i m tired.totally exhuasted in lovin u.it drains me.there.its drinking alcohol like water.the stairs.three storey high.almost rolled down cus i wasn't concious at all after the heavy drink.i thot through alot.i miss everyone back there while enjoyin myself.not deep inside.its still so empty.scubadiving.surfing.jet skit.banana boat.everythin was more den jus fun but veri.its the beach tat i m so lost into.it rained veri heavily yest.we were at the kelong.the waters so clear.i see ur face in there.my heart dropped again.we fished had fresh seafood.as we drive pass the village.i fee so bad for the villagers.squatters.wonder how they survive.i took too many things for granted.over there once square foot the size of nine of everyones butt is onli then sing dollars.but down here one sq feet is six hundred dollars onli the size of ur own butt.i miss u all out there.i wonder how long i can hold on to this painful love.lovin u is so hard.i m lost and empty.back.